During the month of November, I reflected daily on the many things that I was thankful for each day from November 1 until Thanksgiving! While I could never list them all, each night, I listed the first thing that came to my mind.
I am a very blessed woman! I have so much to be thankful for...but I also have a wish (well, lots of them actually) and I hope for many things....
I wish that my younger three children will always love me the same as they do now. That they will never be taught that I am less of a mother or less deserving of them because I can't afford things I used to be able to. I wish that they will always know that the amount of money I have to spend on them is no indication of the amount of love that I have for them. I wish that they will never fall under influences of people who do not like me. I wish that I will not be faulted for paying the price I paid to protect them. I wish that no one will ever tell them that they wished they lived with someone else because it would be "better" because they think having a better house and more money makes for a better life. I wish that no one will tell them that where they live is so terrible. I wish that no one will ever try to manipulate them. I wish that no one will ever tell them how terrible it must be to have younger siblings. I wish that no one will ever try to turn them against me or my other children.
And...
I wish....
That my older kids would not have fallen victim to all of those things.
And...
I hope...
I hope that my older three children know that I will always love them the same as I do now. I hope that they know that I am not less of a mother and that I still deserve them even though I can't afford things I used to be able to. I hope that they will always know that the amount of money I have to spend on them is not an indication of the amount of love I have for them. I hope that they stand up to the people that do not like me. I hope that they are proud of the price WE paid for me to protect them. I hope that they never wish they lived with someone else because they think a a better house and more money means a better life for them. I hope that they know the difference between the "house" that we used to have and the "home" that we live in now. I hope that they will not be manipulated by others. I hope that always realize how lucky they are to have their younger siblings. I hope that they will always love me for who I am and not hate me because they were convinced that I am someone different.
I am a very blessed woman!
I am proud of who I am.
I am a wonderful mother, I know it and anyone who knows me knows it.
The place I call home, the amount of money I have...those things do not make me a worse mother.
I was strong enough to PROTECT my children,
"THAT" makes me a "BETTER" mother!
I just HOPE that someday my kids will know THAT!