My Makers :D
I don't even know where to start! These are two of the absolute most important and influential people I will every have in my life!! I am truly me...because of them. They made me...but then they molded me and when the mold got malformed, they took me in their hand and molded me better. Once I was molded into who I was supposed to be, when I was broken they held me together. Through my life, they allowed me to make mistakes and learn by them and that made me such a better person. No two people have ever loved each other the way they love each other and they taught me how to recognize that kind of love and how to hold on to it and embrace it, in good times and in bad, in sickness or health.
My Dear Mother
I have learned more about my mother in the past 5 years than I have my entire life. I don't know if her true colors have finally shown these past 5 years, or if I am finally old and wise enough to see them. The strength, courage and inspiration of this woman is not even explainable in words.
She has been my rock, my sometimes only supporter, my best friend and the best soundboard and shoulder in the entire world. Through her, I have learned that every second of every single day is a true blessing and to NEVER take one minute for granted. I've learned to treat every day like it is the last and to live with no regrets. Six years ago, I "should" have lost my mother. She had a life threatening heart attack and turned down the numerous offers God gave her at those famous gates of heaven...she was brought back to life, more than once and she has fought for every breath since then. She has suffered through more health problems, pain, suffering, challenges, surgeries and setbacks than anyone should ever have to face and she has done it, not always with grace and determination but always with strength, courage and fear. She is constantly defying the odds! Her mounds of specialists honestly don't "get it". She has defied history in medical journals. Many times, we've been told "this is it." No one can explain it but by the grace of God, she is still here!! Thank God, she is still here! She lives in a lot of pain and misery, and that she does handle with grace and a smile! She is not ready to leave this world and I'm no where near ready for her to either.
My Father
Ohhhh...my father. I have learned more about him than I have ever known these past 5 years as well. He was not always around much when I was growing up, but one thing is for sure...he always worked hard for his family. He has not ever understood me, and he probably never will but in his own way he has always supported me. I didn't always agree with it, but that too came to be more understandable with age. My mom was always a nurturer, always taking in someone...but when she needed nurturing my dad stepped up to the plate. He has become a caregiver, in a way I never would have imagined possible!!! He is my mom's nurse, friend, lover, supporter, and biggest advocate! He has been through more heartache, pain, and joy these last few years than any spouse should have to endure and I know he is so thankful for every additional day that he is blessed with my mom's presence. When my mom passes, he too will die with her. She is his heart, his soul and his very being. You can see it in his eyes...it's the most amazing thing you could ever see!
