Last night ended on a pretty bad note and I was so disappointed in myself for not having a better way with words. It's hard to express myself without such harsh words because I'm starting to feel so angry.
As I become closer to being able to let it all go, I do feel myself take a tighter grip. It's kind of like being at the end of the monkey bars...you know you have to let go, so you hold on a little tighter while you gather the strength before you do it. Today is yet another new day. I'm taking a deep breath and hope that this is the last painful inhale....today, I hope I let go!